a brief explanation

Yesterday my blog went black for the day and today I am back. There are changes here and they will stay that way because a certain person has seen fit to cause me problems and to be hurtful to me. There are things I will no longer get to talk about like normal people get to and that breaks my heart because it points out that I can't have things in life that others have been blessed with.

I just can not have them on my own.

Some of you may notice that there are entries deleted from my blog.

That alone should be a clue.

What readers don't realize is that they THINK they visit here without my knowledge like silent stealthy stalkers but I have a site meter and know who comes and goes...and when. And how often...

Computer people do those sort of things.

Writers do those sort of things.

SMART people do those sort of things.


Thanks for teaching me about trusting too much and too blindly again...and about not letting my guard down for even one spilt second for it is true, the enemy is set to seek and destroy, devour and kill. For a short time I was so trusting of mankind/womankind and thought that surely the people in my REAL life wouldn't be out to harm me.

Hurt is a very bad because it causes people to lash back, even if there is nothing that could have been done.




I talk about God here because the freedom of speech in the first amendment gives me the right to.

I talk about MS to draw people here, not because my MS is so darn horrible that I am completely disabled by it but but to have a consistent topic to write about. Sometimes, because I AM A WRITER, I will use my MS and illness as a tool to talk about the real issue that are bugging me BECAUSE I CAN NOT address them in this forum and CAN NOT EVER SHARE THEM HERE.

But, I can talk about MS.

Or I thought I could.

I may not even be free to do that anymore because it seems that this person thinks that MS can kill.

My next few entries will be primers on what Multiple Sclerosis IS and what it IS NOT.

But no one in the world has the right to completely silence another person and take away something that has been an outlet for YEARS and YEARS. My blog has introduced me to so many TRUE AND HONEST friends that I decided after a full day of thinking that I would not give it up but that I would NOT EVER AGAIN discuss the newest area of joy in my life; parenting.


See that is what this person tried to take away....and my love for the children exceeds my anger at the other's actions.

I thought since a national organization (which I volunteer at each summer) uses pictures that do not show faces but do show bodies and profiles, changes the names and do tell stories about the kids it would be ok. Additionally, I have seen other blogs where people do the same thing I do post FULL ON FACE PICTURES and names of the kids they care for. But I have been corrected and told it isn't ok to post the discreet profile picture or to discuss parenting, even parenting of my "own" kid.

So I won't get personal in my personal blog and this explanation will stand as to why I never mention parenting again. Don't fret, I will still be loving my greatest joys ever, I just won't get to mention it. Not even frustration and steam about my 14 year daughter.



So until I get to the Multiple Sclerosis 101 lesson... xxoo