A little bit wired

I have been mostly silent about the whole foster care thing, by design. For two reasons, number one I do want to respect the privacy of the "system" and number two I want to try and keep my head straight. Last November was so utterly heartbreaking for me, it was almost like a really bad "B" movie. Didn't ya'll think so? It seemed surreal, even to me and I was one of the main characters in the soap opera.

In December I did go and have my head examined by a nice lady who decided that I am, indeed sane enough to care for wayward children. Imagine that. Something I knew all along. Geez.

I coulda told the State Social Worker with the degree from the Westinghouse but no, she wanted a Doctor to do it. Bitter? Me?

Not really.

Tomorrow afternoon our new service, which seems to be much more up front and seems to be dealing with us on a more honorable level, is coming back to our home for the formal interview portion of our process. She has already been here to make sure our home passed the basic safety requirements. It did.

Now I believe she is going to make sure that we answer any lingering questions she may have about "us." I am scared to death because that certainly translates into any lingering questions she has about me. And boy do I have a big mouth. Remember recently I mentioned that both my feet fit in my mouth? When I say this it means literally...I will say things way before I think about them. Stuff just rolls right out of my mouth.

And I mean r.o.l.l.s. Like a sewer.

I think it is because I am basically an honest person and it just does not occur to me to lie. Or even to color the truth. I am very, very blunt and often brash....age has helped me some but it still is a problem that I battle.

So, pray for me tomorrow if you are so inclined and even if you aren't, pull out your crystals, your moth balls or whatever voodoo stuff you've got and help me out please. At 3:30pm my time I'll be needing you.







added later:

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