Wednesday October 6, 2004

(This is my cousin's baby boy...I think he is the cat's meow.)



Now the picture, although lovely, has nothing to do with my post tonight. I have spent the last week at the hospital and have missed out on regular life. Work has been practically a total loss since there have been hourly computer problems that the "tech support" has only bandaged the ouwees, I mean seriously folks, one just doesn't reboot a server for a company SEVERAL times during the work day. The loss of revenue and production is unfathomiable.

This isn't a rant about work either.

It is about last night's ER visit with my husband, Charley Brown. This is the second time I have had to take him to the ER....he is pre-diabetic and has triglercerites (sp? I can't even get close enough in spell check LOL) in the 719 range. I am told that that is both high and bad. Bad bad. His regular doctor put him on a new medicine and he developed a bad reaction to it right in the middle of us helping everyone going with the air evac to Spokane for Shauna.

As soon as they left our house we got in the car and spent most of the night in another ER room. I got to go in with him and was listed as his "care partner" and for some reason this really hit a nerve. When "I" becomes "We" I guess we really are Care Partners, but I had never called it that before. I was sort of giddy about watching him get the needle for a change. I KNOW that that is not a kind, Christianly way of seeing it but it did make my little heart beat just a bit faster. Ah ha! Paybacks baby.



All this stuff was funny to me until the doctor came in to see us instead of sending one of the hundreds of techs we had been seen by all night long. He saw us and said he thought he knew us but wasn't sure from where....turns out he goes to our church and then he said a quick little prayer. Still all good in our eyes. But, it is a bit nerve wracking to have your ER doctor pray before he tells you what is going on. (This is a retrospective thought pattern by the way, being blond and a prayer, it did not strike me as odd at all in the moment~we have prayed with the man before.)

Anyway he drops a little bomb on us...Charley is not only having a reaction to the meds but his pancreas is also inflammed.

Stop the ball !!!! Time !!! I. Said. Time. Out.

I lost a fiance to pancreatic cancer and any time a doctor says something about that little organ my heat stops, my lips go number, my legs feels heavier and there is a whoosing in my ears. I may never recover from that kind of fear.

I almost fainted.

He said not to worry and ran out of the room. He returned with his palm pilot, telling me he loves technology, and promptly appealed to the scholar in my heart....he showed me all the side effects of the medicine Charley was on. Lo and behold inflammed organs is one of them.



At that point my heart started beating.



The room stopped spinning.



I swallowed the bile in my throat.





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Comment from hsmoke4 - 10/19/04 8:11 AM



All right sweetie, breaks over! It's time to come back to your journal so we can all keep up with your gray matter's inner workings. Love, Mom
Comment from tsgerkin - 10/13/04 7:47 PM



C - where are you? Nothing for the weekend, that is not like you. Just let me know you are okay please.
Anne
Comment from dallas0406 - 10/11/04 4:22 PM



I couldn't imagine what you felt like when they mentioned the pancreas. My heart would have been in my throat. I could imagine how that could have been to lose a fiance to that kind of cancer...any kind of cancer or anything. I did lose my mother to that horrible disease, though. I'm glad your ER doc explained that it was a side effect of the medication.

Comment from sharkie412 - 10/9/04 10:42 AM



Christina, I hope and pray that Shawna will make it through in tact. My prayers are for her and her loved ones.

As for my Son-in-law... I can imagine how terrified you must have been to get the news about Charleys enlarged organ! Only sweetie, please have Charley get further testing on his Pancreas. I would feel so much better if I knew for a FACT that his enlarged Pancreas was truly due to the medication.

Love, Mom

Comment from tsgerkin - 10/7/04 3:20 PM



Ah you poor thing. I can imagine how you felt. I was told I had pancreatitis once and that was pretty scarey. The doctor asked me if I drank....LOL......You don't know how funny that was. I never drink anything. He'll be fine. I just know it. Prayers work.
btw, is it Triglycerides? Or Tryglicerides? LOL!

Angela


Comment from readmereadyou - 10/7/04 1:10 PM



Oh no, I'm sorry you had such a scare. I do hope your Charley Brown (what a great name) feels better soon.
Like the new look you have here at your journal. very nice,.
~JerseyGirl

Comment from cneinhorn - 10/7/04 6:02 AM



Oh, man, I'm sorry y'all had such a scare. I hope Charley is feeling better soon. My husband has similarly high triglycerides, and getting the right medicine for him took some adjusting. If he'd get his diet close to anything resembling healthy, it would help a lot. (That's not about your husband. Mine thinks chips and crackers are on the food group pyramid.)
Comment from sistercdr - 10/7/04 4:50 AM



Well, wasn't THAT a hideous scare! Just what you needed, I'm sure. Keeping good thoughts that your C.B. will be better soon! Lisa :-]
Comment from mlraminiak - 10/6/04 10:37 PM



ohhhhh wow! For one.. I think it was totaly cool that your doc prayed with you.. even if it wasnt serous.. i like to cover things in prayer and in your case what a bonus to know the doctor from church.

Secondly.. CAREPARTNER??? I thought you guys was married?? Wouldn't that make you his SPOUCE!. or is this the PC Terms now?? blaa..

Praise God Charlie will be ok and your worst fear is not going to happen. I will pray they will find the proper meds for him to be on and that this time he wont have a bad reaction.

Much Love,
Mary
Comment from hunybea4him - 10/6/04 10:36 PM



Hes precious :)
please keep me updated on shauna and let us know her progress
she and her family are in my prayers as are you
Comment from alnorthport - 10/6/04 10:07 PM