Saturday, October 16, 2004


This week, actually this month, has always been a hard one for me and for the ones I love. The 8th would have been Gil's birthday. The 13th mark's the anniversary of my father's murder and today is the anniversary of his funeral twenty five years ago. He's been absent from my physical life longer than he was in it. And yet my heart recognizes him in very subtle things. On the 21st of this month my parents might have been married 38 years.....had their lives worked out differently, that is.

Holly Kay was born today and had she lived she would be 39 today. My impish best friend who loved with passion, angered with fire and forgave from the bottom of her soul. My female completion of myself. Perhaps other than Kim, the only other girlfriend that I have let wander thru my heart.

October is the finale of summer and the end of things that were. It is the begining of deep, cold winters where warmth begins to fade and in the end fall becomes the promise of spring.



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How that must have felt to be going through such times as those I would not know. I do agree with your last paragraph...October being the closing of things that were...coming into a harsh winter where there seems to be no warmth but from the ones that love you most. Then we have spring...where we feel as though we are awakening to begin something new again.
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Comment from sharkie412 - 10/20/04 10:59 AM



Christina...it sucks that October is a bad month for you. I don't know that I have one of those... My bad memories are pretty much scattered all over the calendar. Which, I guess, is better...because there always seems to be a good memory to offset the bad in any given month. Look forward to November, Thanksgiving, the beginning of the holidays. Or spring... Lisa :-]
Comment from mlraminiak - 10/18/04 10:31 PM



So much Heartache this month... My prayers are with you.
FAITH.
V
Comment from deabvt - 10/18/04 1:23 PM



Oh I'm so sorry this month is such a hard one for you. I hope you can remember some of the good memories to help with the bad..
~JerseyGirl

Comment from cneinhorn - 10/16/04 7:46 PM



So sorry this was such a tough month for you. You're such a beautiful person and the gentle and the compassionate always feel these happenings more. God hold you in His loving arms.

Angela


Comment from readmereadyou - 10/16/04 5:34 PM



The memories coming all at the same time must be so hard to handle, yet bittersweet at the same time. You're in my prayers.
Comment from sistercdr - 10/16/04 2:49 PM



The promise of spring says it all, dear one. Hugs. *Barb*
Comment from barbpinion - 10/16/04 2:03 PM