Monday, April 26, 2004

Good Morning America tribute to Pat Tillman


Often times adults find themselves swirling in sadness; it's not the violent I-wanna-die-and-leave-this world kind of sadness that very few actually feel, but rather it is that soft and gentle sadness that leaves the heart feeling slightly heavy and the air just a tad too much. It's the kind of sadness that causes the sunshine to look bleached and the sky to seem less blue. It causes the singing birds to loose their harmony and the laugh of children to seem shrill.

Sadness has a cause that many cannot agree to but many also suspect. It's that old "something is missing" feeling. That old: "Gosh I just feel off."

The hearts of most adults strive for belonging and connectedness. (Is that a real word?) Each of us searches for this sense of belonging and some of us are lucky enough to have felt like we belonged somewhere, sometime. It's that feeling of warmth and all being right in the world that we spend the rest of our lives trying to capture and to recreate. Remember a time in your life when everyone you KNEW loved you was together enjoying a family get together. There. It's that feeling. For me it is a very precise Thanksgiving dinner in my Grandma's house with the green flocked wallpaper and chandelier she brought back from Spain. EVERYONE was there and no one was fighting. My family has always said moving prayers and I remember God being the center of the prayer that evening. I remember sticking black olives on all my fingers and chasing the younger kids.

But this adult sadness.....it is the feeling of no longer belonging...no longer fitting in. I wonder if it's always been that way for adults? This is my first time wearing the grown up hat.





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I sure do feel sad and disconnected from this world. On top of all of that, my life is in dire straits.There is just no place left to turn for help. I feel like giving up, but wait, I cant give up. If things dont change soon, I am going to be homeless and living on the streets.
Comment from am4th - 4/27/04 3:19 PM



I tend to agree with musenia...sadness is a part of us and our lives, like any other emotion...some we choose to experience more over others. Take heart, dear friend...Hugs
Comment from gbgoglo - 4/27/04 12:23 PM



I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling sad today. I was a loner when I was younger, and part of me thought that sadness was just a way of life. As I grew up I learned this isn't true and started coming out of my shell and experiencing the joy of going beyond my sheltered life to interact with others.

Sadness still visits me once in a while, but now I treat it as just another emotion. We are human. We think. We feel. Sadness is just a feeling which, though difficult, deepens the hue of our lives.
Comment from musenla - 4/26/04 10:21 PM



When you go out into the world on your own, you leave a sort of "womb" behind. You know you couldn't have stayed...and you can never go back. But you will always miss it. Lisa :-]
Comment from mlraminiak - 4/26/04 9:11 PM



You are fortunate to have felt these feelings of belonging. :)
Comment from wildflower121764 - 4/26/04 6:40 PM



Yep! I think most adults do experience this. I find I'm usually content with the world and my place in it (if) my priorities are in order and HE is in his proper place. Sometimes we experience that sadness when going through trials. Satan loves to get us heading downward into the rooms of discourgement and chaos. When troubled we fill our minds with questions and almost always go back to wishing for the day when (life was perfect) at least in our memory, like your terrific memory of Thanksgiving. Had to smile about olives on fingers. I did that too. HUGS..my friend. **Barb**
Comment from barbpinion - 4/26/04 8:29 AM



I could write volumes on sadness, but I won't. I will say it gets easier to bear. {{{{{Hugs}}}}}}
Comment from sistercdr - 4/26/04 7:43 AM