Within the limits of my illness I find some comfort. Oddly I am not even uncomfortable with the flaws my health has but rather see them as the flickering of a candle in a colored hurricane lamp, the lamp by itself is bright but it is the flame that commands the brilliant lights. I am more than colored glass but yet the flaws in each of us enhance our unique views on life. You have illnesses too, they just may not have the same kind of fancy names that mine have.
Multiple Sclerosis literally means many scars. I often wonder if the hurts that plague other people's souls could be considerd scars too. The mere act of living brings us closer to universal truths and the act of living leaves indelible traces on our hearts. Sometimes the sadness is overwhelming and other days I forget to be sad at all, on those days it is as if I have always been on top of the world in a winning stance.
Of course, being well versed on illnesses of all sorts, I start to worry that maybe I am obsessive-compulsive or manic-depressive; but alas, I am just human. The human reality is that all ranges of emotion are standard and reasonable....expected and savored like fine wine.
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Christine, I love your humaness! Hugs, gloria
Comment from gbgoglo - 5/16/05 11:36 AM
Again I say, I love your work.
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Comment from deabvt - 5/5/05 7:39 AM
"The mere act of living brings us closer to universal truths and the act of living leaves indelible traces on our hearts."
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL EPIGRAM ...I HAVE NOTICED MANY EPIGRAMS IN YOUR JOURNAL AND I RESPECT YOU FOR YOUR BRAVE HEART, YOUR HONESTY, AND YOUR CAPACITY TO SHED LIGHT AND LOVE. I WILL BE BACK TO BE ENLIGHTENED.
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Comment from courtenaymphelan - 4/19/05 4:24 AM
You are right when you say "you have an illness too" but perhaps not with the fancy name that mine has. Many scars is what living this gift of life puts on us if we are not careful to view them as something other than scars or make an effort to remove as many scars as we can by being more like you. Open, honest and positive in the face of adversity. I feel for you, I sense your pain, and you are in my thoughts and prayers always.
Marlene-PurelyPoetry
Comment from mkolasa101 - 4/17/05 9:38 PM
God has given you the ability to rise above your discomforts, no matter how uncomfortable you are. You are such a blessing to me; such an inspiration. Hugs, and much love. *Barb*
Comment from barbpinion - 4/17/05 3:19 PM
but alas, I am just human. The human reality is that all ranges of emotion are standard and reasonable....expected and savored
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Oh, how true, true, true.
Comment from theresarrt7 - 4/16/05 9:29 PM
Oops! Sorry, Chris. I just left wrong screen name!
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Comment from deabvt - 4/13/05 8:01 PM
Beautiful, Chris.
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Comment from alucard1dvt - 4/13/05 7:52 PM
That is a fine way to describe The Illness. I was touched by it. Our many scars seemed to have manifested this way. And oddly I don't feel it takes away from us but adds to who we are. Thanks for your lovely thoughts.
KAthy
Comment from gypsytrader49 - 4/12/05 3:28 PM
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...and don't forget female. It is our curse/blessing to feel things deeply, to really experience all the emotions God has provided us. Lisa :-] http://journals.aol.com/mlraminiak/ComingtotermswithMiddleAge/
Comment from lisaram1955 - 4/12/05 8:50 AM