
I am a mutt.
I mean that in the nicest way. I do. I come from a long line of mixed heritage and in fact I really am French and Gypsy too. Which explains my wandering soul in a rather succinct fashion but not in a true fashion. Gypsies live for today. Yesterday is done and can not be changed so they dwell not there. Tomorrow is not promised and gypsies do not believe they are going to need it, so they dwell not there, either.
Today they die, so they live fully in today. Gypsies own next to nothing ~ why does anyone need anything if they aren't going to see tomorrow is what Gypsies want to know?
In my heart I am truly a gypsy. And gypsies are just one drop of blood away from pirates...Who I also instinctively understand. Living free and wild on the sea. Seeking the next port full of adventure. Pillaging life for what it will give.
I shall life a life full of happiness.
I mean that in the nicest way. I do. I come from a long line of mixed heritage and in fact I really am French and Gypsy too. Which explains my wandering soul in a rather succinct fashion but not in a true fashion. Gypsies live for today. Yesterday is done and can not be changed so they dwell not there. Tomorrow is not promised and gypsies do not believe they are going to need it, so they dwell not there, either.
Today they die, so they live fully in today. Gypsies own next to nothing ~ why does anyone need anything if they aren't going to see tomorrow is what Gypsies want to know?
In my heart I am truly a gypsy. And gypsies are just one drop of blood away from pirates...Who I also instinctively understand. Living free and wild on the sea. Seeking the next port full of adventure. Pillaging life for what it will give.
I shall life a life full of happiness.
Joy abounds.
I bring this up because I have been moving, like many of you have been. Moving the words here to this journal was quiet simple, just copy and paste the entry and all the comments in one fell swoop~hit draft save and maniacally move to the next entry before AOL does something crazy. Like delete my precious words. Like I matter to them. LOL. I will go back and spell check, line up the entries, change the dates and times and post my whole journal so that it is all unpacked. But My journey is all unloaded off the truck and it was easy...Mostly.
But.... Word Dancing.
My poetry.
My shadows.
When Theresa Williams was talking about shadows in writing all I could think about was poetry because if my writing has shadows that is where they lie, in my poems. I rarely comment on my poetry because what many of you don't realize is that my poetry is my truest soul laid out there in public for you to view. My poems are ME. That is as close to me as another human being will ever get and I share that very private part of me in a very public forum that allows strangers to comment on it.
Yikes.
I am an honest and deep person. So moving my poetry has been tedious for me.
And joyful. It has been like finding presents I have left in last year's coat pocket just for unknown emergencies.
Here is today's gift to myself:
Aging
Chase not forbidden butterflies
linger not in the icy stream of old love
loves that fled in the dawning of light
the vision is impaired and yet rhythmic
coming back to today, to tomorrow
unborn children dance across these pages
with the beat of a well written play
thump, thump, thumping their limbs
of green youth against the pulse of my heart
And my sorrows lie face to face on the
pen and paper journal seeming shallow
within a soul that has forever changed
within a woman quickly becoming new
I bring this up because I have been moving, like many of you have been. Moving the words here to this journal was quiet simple, just copy and paste the entry and all the comments in one fell swoop~hit draft save and maniacally move to the next entry before AOL does something crazy. Like delete my precious words. Like I matter to them. LOL. I will go back and spell check, line up the entries, change the dates and times and post my whole journal so that it is all unpacked. But My journey is all unloaded off the truck and it was easy...Mostly.
But.... Word Dancing.
My poetry.
My shadows.
When Theresa Williams was talking about shadows in writing all I could think about was poetry because if my writing has shadows that is where they lie, in my poems. I rarely comment on my poetry because what many of you don't realize is that my poetry is my truest soul laid out there in public for you to view. My poems are ME. That is as close to me as another human being will ever get and I share that very private part of me in a very public forum that allows strangers to comment on it.
Yikes.
I am an honest and deep person. So moving my poetry has been tedious for me.
And joyful. It has been like finding presents I have left in last year's coat pocket just for unknown emergencies.
Here is today's gift to myself:
Aging
Chase not forbidden butterflies
linger not in the icy stream of old love
loves that fled in the dawning of light
the vision is impaired and yet rhythmic
coming back to today, to tomorrow
unborn children dance across these pages
with the beat of a well written play
thump, thump, thumping their limbs
of green youth against the pulse of my heart
And my sorrows lie face to face on the
pen and paper journal seeming shallow
within a soul that has forever changed
within a woman quickly becoming new
Ah, yes, "the icy stream of old love" - it freezes the blood and retards forward motion.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes to you and Charley.
Bon & Mal
I live for the day after tomorrow, but I'm also a mutt.
ReplyDelete"My poems are ME. ...as close to me as another human being will ever get...
ReplyDeleteOnce again, Christina, your words are my reality.
You know how I feel about your poetry...
Lisa :-]
I never understood why anybody wouldn't want to be a mutt! All that great mixture of blood running through one's veins makes us stronger, I think. Very thoughtful entry. We are all working to get used to our new place, and it's sorta fun. Have a great holiday.
ReplyDeleteA mutt? Oh Christina, your description made me think of a mixed breed puppy at the pet store. You know the kind that everybody ohhhs and awhs over?
ReplyDeleteYour gypsy blood is full of wonderlust that dances like an angel on a pirates smile. It dances on my smile...
Love you heart and soul,
Mom
ahh yes... gypsies and pirates. I love it when you write.
ReplyDeleteAhhh, you know, being a mutt isnt so bad. I'm 50% Bohemian and have a history of MS that goes so far back it's scary. Good thing I hooked up with someone who genetically disparate from me. No chance of inbreeding!
ReplyDeleteHmmm, a mutt? Me too LOL
ReplyDeleteJust popped in to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving!
Hugs my friend,
Deb
Living for today...not worrying about accumulating possessions. That is the essence of true freedom. Happy Thanksgiving, Christina.
ReplyDeleteAhh seems like sorrows as
ReplyDeleteEntities that sometime hide
In the Scrunching of our
Brows and upturned nose.
Need be released by streams of Consciousness,
To drift out of Sight, or past the Bridge between our eyes, too worn to fight.
Christina, you`ve been so busy!
ReplyDeleteHey, I remember this poem. I loved the ending.
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